if i was any more emo I'd have stigmata

[erratio]

Yeh, so yesterday (and to some extent today) was an emo day. I'd blog about it but I'm no longer in an emo enough frame of mind to do it justice. Really it was about feeling socially awkward and a failure and invisible and anxious and all the crap that comes with just having one of <i>those</i> days. And all I feel is thankful that I've gotten to the stage where a day like this isn't something I can look forward to semi-regularly. I still wouldn't call myself really happy and I still have no idea about so many aspects of myself and my life, but these days I'm mostly ok with that and with the realisation that I'll probably never know. Try to pin myself down and I'll change just to spite myself :p

Anyway, this too shall pass.

Comments

[doctorer.livejournal.com]

Nah. Stigmata are granted to the holy, not the lame.

=P

[acute-angle.livejournal.com]

Hints from a former (and still sometimes) emo:

- If you know that something is wrong in your life, do something about it.
- Take time to do things that make YOU happy. You come first.
- If writing or talking helps, do it. Any true friend would be happy to listen.
- You need to be motivated to be not-emo. Otherwise you feel shitty for forcing yourself to snap out of being emo, thus making you more emo. The cycle never ends.
- COMEDY OPTION: Wear less black.

[erratio.livejournal.com]

Hmm, the problem with the talking is that it feeds the cycle too. When I feel shitty I feel like l would be wasting other people's time making them listen to me. Then if I disregard that because I know it's just a product of feeling shitty and go talk to someone about it anyway I feel more loserish for being weak enough that I can't deal with it myself.
Anyway, I seem to be better today, so yay!

Also in other news, the gmail ad links next to this reply box include "how to induce vomiting" O_o