Musings

What is it about guys that makes us girls go funny?
Its been however many years since the feminist revolution that taught us that its safe to be ourselves, that we don't have to measure ourselves by how many guys look at our legs/bust/ass, that we can be proud just to be ourselves and to live our own independent lives.

This would all be fine and good except that the majority of us born in this time of freedom and equality don't particularly want to be liberated. Oh sure, we are happy to take the legacy the feminists left us and go forge our own careers and be money-earners in our own rights. But at the end of it, we still want guys to look at us covetously and to find us physically attractive. Why must we feel this way? I still haven't found any satisfactory answer as to why i can have a dozen friends who have proven in countless ways how much they care for me, yet if i don't feel like my bf is pining after me i feel like i have somehow failed. And i have seen it in other people's relationships around me too, even in an otherwise happy stable relationship, if the girl doesn't feel like she is physically wanted she will not be completely happy.

Damn these female hormones of ours is all i can say. Damn them to hell

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haha just had to link this

http://www.sengifted.org/

kudos to rupert

and nice to know at least someone out there thinks SENGers are gifted! hehehe

someone make me work :(

Damn this weather outside.

Its so hard to concentrate on work. Even knowing i'm going to fail if i don't get to work isn't enough right now to make me motivated. Instead i have been downloading mp3s from a hundred different sites, and almost getting to work but never quite making it there.

Right now every flat surface around my computer is covered in requirements and b specs from 4 different groups. I can't wait to throw them out!

This is just another procrastination so i'll stop now and get back to trying to work

games are good, mmkay?

so i was looking around at random livejournals, after rupert was googling for my secret hidden you-can't-find-it private blog*, and sara linked me to some really interesting ones.

And then i found this: http://www.livejournal.com/users/theferrett/560010.html
It's about how this guy uses video games as a form of meditation.

All i could think of was how true this is for me too. I tend to start feeling twitchy if its been several days since i last played any games. And when i'm stressed I find myself far more likely to choose games that require very little thinking, such as Columns ( a tetris-like game for the sega genesis). Of course, my playing usually suffers since i'm not putting all of my concentration into getting the flashy jewels to line up, but it seems to be the only way i can really think these things through. I'm not sure why. Possibly its because i've never really been one of those who lie on their beds and stare at the ceiling thinking deep thoughts (for me those moments have always been when i was alone at school or on public transport. In fact public transport is the main source of all my deep thoughts :p).

Anyway, nice to know i'm not the only person who uses video games as escape/meditation when i feel stressed. Of course, then i forget to stop playing and get on with my work but that's a separate issue..

* i should really stop rubbing it in eh? :p