retrospective

[erratio]

one of the weirdest things about being human is how at almost any point you feel like you're adult and mature, and then a year later you can look back on yourself and laugh hysterically at the idea that that person thought they were so mature.
And so it is for me.

I distinctly remember a certain conversation i had last year with alison and hein and zhe and possibly a few others about the possiblity of having kids. I stated that i would probably never have kids because at that point i didn't feel like i would ever be a good mother and i doubted that my feelings there would ever change.
Now.. i still don't think i would be a good mother. But looking back on my younger 18-year old self who was oh-so-sure that her feelings wouldn't change with time, i can only shake my head wryly.

Life is in flux, if you don't change you become stagnant..

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Ok first hit: the elderly. I don't think THEY look back on their elderly-1 selves and go "ha! what an ignorant kid I was" do they. DO THEY.

Second hit: you're talking about wanting to be a mother. What's his name.