the light at the end of the tunnel
Mar. 1st, 2006 09:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
erratioso.. uni eh
So far, my lectures are SOOO AWESOME!! w00t. I'm motivated for the first time in soooo long. It's like being temporarily blind and then starting to be able to see all the amazing colours again :)
A lot of people reading this probably won't know but the last week in particular has been hell for me.. i was really really depressed from a break up, to the point of having to bully myself into getting out of bed and into uni during oweek.
Going from that week, where i felt terrible, into this week, where everything seems strangely optimistic and potentially going really well, is a huge change. I only hope i can keep it up, in some ways i keep expecting to wake up and be depressed again because it feels 'normal' these days
In related news, saw him again at uni today >_< the unexpected shock made my hands start shaking. I ended up inviting him to lunch with me Dave and Mark because i really need to stop having a heart attack every time i see him >_< I was really down again afterwards too.. he wrote something with me in mind and it just totally screwed with my head. I don't know for sure what he was trying to say in it but my stupid mind is going to keep pecking at it forever i just know it. Gah.
Oh well, at least there was algos later, which is the most awesome subject ever :D The entire lecture feels like the fun parts of Richard's lectures without any of the content.. except that in this case the fun stuff IS the content. hehehe
So far, my lectures are SOOO AWESOME!! w00t. I'm motivated for the first time in soooo long. It's like being temporarily blind and then starting to be able to see all the amazing colours again :)
A lot of people reading this probably won't know but the last week in particular has been hell for me.. i was really really depressed from a break up, to the point of having to bully myself into getting out of bed and into uni during oweek.
Going from that week, where i felt terrible, into this week, where everything seems strangely optimistic and potentially going really well, is a huge change. I only hope i can keep it up, in some ways i keep expecting to wake up and be depressed again because it feels 'normal' these days
In related news, saw him again at uni today >_< the unexpected shock made my hands start shaking. I ended up inviting him to lunch with me Dave and Mark because i really need to stop having a heart attack every time i see him >_< I was really down again afterwards too.. he wrote something with me in mind and it just totally screwed with my head. I don't know for sure what he was trying to say in it but my stupid mind is going to keep pecking at it forever i just know it. Gah.
Oh well, at least there was algos later, which is the most awesome subject ever :D The entire lecture feels like the fun parts of Richard's lectures without any of the content.. except that in this case the fun stuff IS the content. hehehe
