stupid emotions...
Mar. 8th, 2006 09:53 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
erratiowhy is it that i can go to uni in a fairly energetic positive mood and come home wanting to curl into a ball and die?
why is it that someone who used to make my heart beat faster in excitement now causes my hands to start shaking as soon as i see him?
why is it that i feel a huge amount of anger both at myself and him, me for not having the guts to go and have it out with him and him for making it harder for me than he could have done?
why is it that seeing him ruins my whole day and makes it impossible for me to concentrate on uni?
why is it that everything reminds me of him?
why is it the only conversations i can have with him at all are hopelessly shallow and banal?
why can't i just fucking get over him already, then my life would be so much simpler
*sigh*
why is it that someone who used to make my heart beat faster in excitement now causes my hands to start shaking as soon as i see him?
why is it that i feel a huge amount of anger both at myself and him, me for not having the guts to go and have it out with him and him for making it harder for me than he could have done?
why is it that seeing him ruins my whole day and makes it impossible for me to concentrate on uni?
why is it that everything reminds me of him?
why is it the only conversations i can have with him at all are hopelessly shallow and banal?
why can't i just fucking get over him already, then my life would be so much simpler
*sigh*
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Date: 2006-03-09 01:39 am (UTC)why indeed =/ I wish I knew the answer too ^^;
Sometimes I wish I could suddenly get infected with selective amnesia or something lol
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Date: 2006-03-09 04:19 am (UTC)*sigh*
Date: 2006-03-09 02:08 pm (UTC)